Wednesday, April 28, 2021

Digital vs Physical Books – I'm joining in the debate

Digital vs Physical Books


We all know that this subject has been done to death, but I didn't know what else to write about and I want to write something (also, I have three ideas for full length novels that I'm putting off starting).

I have no clear opinion, but I will write my viewpoints on the pros and cons of each, and who knows – I may change my mind and come to a final conclusion!


DIGITAL PROS

• You can have so many more books without taking up any more space in your house.

• Books are cheaper – you can get so many more.

• So convenient – going on a trip? Pull our your eReader and get reading. No more finishing one book and not having another to read.

DIGITAL CONS

• No nice book smell.

• Harder to hide behind, as it's generally only half the size of an open book.

• You can't show off a bookcase full of books.

• No excitement when a parcel with books in it arrives.

• Can't read properly if sat in the sun – glare on the screen.

• Charge runs out (and I always forget to put things on charge).


PHYSICAL PROS

• Display of pretty covers.

• Smell (it's a very important contributing factor, okay?!)

• You get to hold a book in your hands.

• Generally easier to know how much is left to read.

• Bookshelves – no need to say more.

• Don't worry about charging – a book can't run out of charge.


PHYSICAL CONS

• Space – can't have tons of books without taking up loads of room.

• Expensive – you can get some cheap second hand, but new books are generally quite pricy. (Don't get me started on hardback prices).

• Easy to damage. If there's a fire, you're losing them all. If there's a flood, good luck drying them out on the radiator.

• They break – pages rip, or fall out. There are people who will fold down the corners (which I don't mind, but I have a friend who would murder me if I did it to one of her books). My Mum's bookshelf has some books that are so old the covers have fallen off.

• Losing your place – an eReader generally saves your place automatically. If you close a book, without checking the page number or marking the page, you have to flick through until you see something you recognise, then try and figure out where exactly you were.


So, as it turns out, there are quite a few cons to both. Personally, if I want to buy a book, I will buy a paperback. Usually, they're about £7.99. I probably could get the digital version for about £2.99, at most.

However, I think the physical version of books is more of a lifestyle thing, and I am definitely lead that type of lifestyle. I have an eReader (which I bought at least six years ago, when it was on offer... I got 50% off!) and it is old, slow and takes forever to load. That might be because I used to download as many free books as possible. I have at least 80 on there that I have never read. However, if I need to go on a really long train journey or something, it would be wonderful, as I would never run out of new books to read before the journey is over.

There is a certain glamour to physical books. Reading by fairy lights is so much more aesthetic than reading from a bright screen (although both are probably bad for your eyes... read in appropriate lighting, kids. Don't strain your eyes.) Pulling a book out of your bag is so much more appealing than pulling out an eReader. Likewise, a book is only a good present if it's a physical copy.

And I'm never going to let someone borrow a digital copy of a book. (Not that I'd happily let them borrow a physical copy... I did once and I didn't get it back for about four months. I practically stole it back, because I was at the house of the friend that had borrowed it and I saw it. It went into my bag and home with me. I knew she had finished reading it because she had told me over text a couple of weeks earlier.)

Okay, I think I came to a conclusion – while I am happy to read from an eReader, and they are so much more convenient, my preference is a physical copy (although, I much prefer paperbacks to hardbacks. I'm not sure why, I think it's because paperbacks are so much easier to hold and read from different angels, such as when laying down.)

So that rounds it off. Are you more of a physical fellow or a digital delight? (I can't come up with alliterative sentences very well).

Also, the formatting for this was a nightmare, I'm not sure if the font is smaller than it usually is, but I can't be bothered to do anything more to try and make it look better.

For now, then...

Bye!


Saturday, April 24, 2021

Short Story – The Wall and the Flower



I needed a short story, because my silly posting schedule demands that I have a short story to post that isn't a part of Places To Read or Writing Prompt Stories.

So I googled book title generator.

I picked the Romance genre and this is what it gave me.

No, this does not class as a writing prompt, because I said so. This is a short story, which has not been prompted by a starter sentence.

I'll start writing.


THE STORY


There is a wall at the bottom of my garden.

It's old, the kind of old where none of the stones are the same size, all pieced together like a puzzle, stuck together in a mosaic of shapes and sizes. It's so old that it's crumbling, and after every storm I take a walk to the bottom of my garden to see if it's still standing.

It always is, the moss and ivy that has covered it acting as a net, as a support, holding the stones together and protecting the bed of wildflowers I planted next to it.

When I say planted, I mean I bought a cheap packet of seeds and threw them on the patch of earth, not expecting them to grow.

The day after I had thrown those seeds, I met someone. He wasn't tall, he didn't have sparkling blue eyes and he didn't have dark hair. On paper, he was the opposite of my type. In reality, I fell almost immediately for him. He was a farmer, not in the sense that he owned his own farm, but that he worked on one. His hair was blond and it was constant messy. His chin was scratchy with stubble, but for once I didn't mind, because although his eyes weren't an ocean of blue, I quickly decided that I prefer chocolate and coffee to the sea.

It had shocked me when the little green sprouts sprung from the ground, more dense in some patches than others, but still growing. Not that I hadn't been looking after them, I had made sure that the soil was damp enough, but the earth had never grown anything before. I had tried to grow some garden herbs there, but they had all wilted and died before they could be of any use to me.

When the sprouts came up was when he asked me to dinner. He picked me up in his car, which was for once void of the mud on the ground and bits of hay on the seats, and drove me into town, to a small diner. I had been there before, it was where everyone went when they didn't want to cook. Some people spent every single evening there, although that was mostly the middle aged men who didn't have a family at home to eat dinner with. I ordered chips and salad, he ordered a burger. We laughed, we ate and although I offered, he paid for both meals. On the walk out to his car, his fingers brushed mine, and in the car ride on the way home, I reached over and interlocked my fingers with his.

With more sun shining down as summer approached, the flowers grew more. I wasn't sure what type of flowers they were, but the buds were pretty, some oranges and some pinks. There were a couple, scattered here and there, that were a lovely blue colour. It seemed that this was the rarest of all the buds, because while there were uncountable amounts of pinks, whites and oranges, I could only count four blues.

We spent increasingly more time together, seeing each other nearly every day. He would finish work and go home, get changed, and then come straight round to mine. If he wasn't working, I would drive to his and we would go for walks, walking through the fields and along footpaths, talking non-stop or walking in silence, listening to the birds and the running of a stream. We would hold hands, swinging them slightly as we walked, and if we stopped to look at something, he would wrap his arm around my shoulders, pulling me close and kissing the top of my head. Sometimes he would reach out and cup my face softly, turning my head towards him so he could kiss my lips.

When the flowers came out, it was a magical day. We sat together in my garden, on an old, rickety, wooden bench. We bought a cheap, disposable barbecue and with the smell of smoke and sausages in the air, we sat together, taking it all in. As he turned the sausages, I stared at the flowers, swaying slightly in the breeze, trying to find the blue ones, and when he sat back down next to me, he wrapped his arm around me, pulling me close. I rested my head against him, reaching up to my shoulder to hold the hand he had around me. When the sun went down, we went inside to escape the chill that had come into the air. He kissed me, with the taste of the chocolate biscuits we had been eating all evening on his tongue, and led me up to my bedroom.

The flowers stayed in bloom for a month or so, some dying off and others coming out, keeping an almost constant display of colour. I cut the heads off the dead ones, to keep the whole lot looking greener and stopping the plants from dying prematurely. He spent more and more time with me, and we were almost never apart, except from when we were at work. He spent most nights at my house. His car broke down at one point, so I drove to him to work and back, bringing him home with me. We would cook together in the evening, although he was better at not burning things than me. I spent more time sitting on the counter watching him, or occasionally chopping something, rather than doing anything that could directly affect our food.

The day we had our first argument, I went out into the garden to sit with my flowers. It had been silly, just a little thing. He had asked me earlier in the day to get stuff ready for dinner, so when he came home he could cook it without any hassle and I had forgotten. I ran my hands over the flowers, watching the stalks bend slightly and sway when I let them go. The petals of the orange ones were soft, the white ones had stalks that were rough on my hands and the pink ones left pollen on my fingers. I cried more when I realised that one of my blue ones had gone to seed than when we had argued.

Within a month, all of my blue flowers were gone. I let the flower heads go to seed, so I could grow more next year, but they were a stain on the rest of the flowers now. The flower heads made the oranges and the pinks less appealing, my eyes always going towards the brown rather than the pretty colours. He spent less and less time at my place, instead spending more time with his friends in town, or being too tired to drive over to my house in the evening. I didn't want to see my flowers anymore, to see the colours when all the blue ones had died.

When the storm came, I didn't care. I didn't care enough about the windows that let in drafts of air, which were making my house cold, to close the curtains. I didn't care about the noise, the howling of the wind, the rain slamming into my roof, the rattling of my door against the locks. He had phoned me earlier in the day, saying that he didn't think it was working, that he thought we should go our separate ways. I agreed, I had gone too long without the head kisses, without his arm around my shoulders, without the phone calls when he was at work, saying that he loved me. I had gone too long without my blue flowers to care enough to cry.

The next morning, I pulled on my boots and shrugged on a coat, heading to the bottom of the garden. The first tears I shed after he told me he wanted to break up weren't over the relationship, but about the wall in the bottom of my garden, my flower patch, which I hadn't expected to grow, or to love as much as I did. About the ivy that had finally given up and let the stones tumble away, crushing what was left of my flowers. I shifted the rocks, desperately, but the seed heads from my blue flowers were broken, destroyed.

In the spring, I had someone come and rebuild my wall. I might not have liked it before, but over the course of the year I had grown to love the wild part of my garden. But when it was rebuilt, even though the same stones were reused, there was no ivy or moss growing on it. The wall was bare, too strong and new looking.

I went back to the same store I had gone to before, looking for the seeds, but try as I might, I couldn't find them.

I bought a random packet of wildflowers and threw the seeds over the ground like I had the year before. I waited, making sure the ground was damp, that the seeds had enough water and light, but the weeks passed and I couldn't see any green sprouts. Eventually, I stopped going to the bottom of my garden. Every time I saw the bare earth, my heart broke a little bit more, wanting to see my blue flowers just one more time, to run my hands over the orange ones and watch as they swayed in the breeze, the stalks dancing with the wind, but never breaking.


The End.


Applause ensues.

I have a standing ovation.

I bow, the audience cheers.

I am very humble.

Honestly, though, this wasn't where I though this would go. I actually spent about an hour writing this, but I'm pretty proud of it.

In case it needs explaining:

The flowers are her relationship (pretty self explanatory). She hadn't tried to grow anything before, and didn't expect them to grow, like she didn't expect the relationship. When they did grow, she started to love the flowers, to love keeping them alive. When the flowers started dying, so did her relationship. The blue flowers specifically represent her love for her boyfriend, and when they die, her relationship is not going well. Her determination to keep the seeds, to grow more blue flowers shows that she wants love, but the storm, the wall falling, means that the relationship is truly over, that she can't manufacture another one as easily as keeping seeds to grow. When she buys more seeds, she is wanting to start another relationship, but without her blue flowers, her heart isn't in it, so any relationship is doomed to fail.

At least, that's what I think my strange, long metaphor should mean!

I hope you enjoyed. I don't really write romance, but this story at least had tears and misery, which is what I usually write about.

That's it from me.

Bye!


Wednesday, April 21, 2021

Story Time – A dramatised version of the time I saw a cute guy in a shop

A story that shows how creative my mind is on a day to day basis.


I looked down at my shoes as I walked, trying desperately to time my footsteps to the music playing through my earphones. The last song had been fine, but this one was just a little bit too fast for me to keep up with. I looked up from my feet as someone crossed the road in front of me and I slowed my pace slightly so it didn’t look like I was following him. 

I could only see the back of him, but from the bag tucked under his arm, he was obviously going to the shop, like I was. Great, so I had to awkwardly follow him all the way to the shop. 

My mind started to wander as I thought about the money in my pocket. My father had sent me for bread, just bread, nothing else, and I was wondering just how much chocolate I could buy before he got suspicious over how expensive the bread was. The guy in front of me crossed the road and I waited as a car went by before I followed. As the car passed, the guy turned his head to watch it and his eyes flicked towards me, just as I misjudged my step onto the pavement and stumbled. Great, not only had I tripped and scuffed my shoes, a complete stranger had seen me do it. On the plus side, he hadn’t laughed, so maybe he hadn’t been paying attention.

My stumble had set me back, away from him a bit, so I watched as he walked into the shop from a distance and sighed to myself as I picked up my pace, the song playing in my left ear finally changing to one I could walk along to. The right ear bud was bouncing on my chest as I walked and I had long since given up try to tuck it into my top to stop it from doing so. 

I walked into the shop, making a beeline for the bread. I sighed inwardly as I saw three different people standing around the bread. I tried to tell myself to excuse the elderly couple for taking a long time, because they were old. The other guy muttered an apology to me for being in the way and I replied with a ‘that’s alright’, my voice way too high and squeaky. I cringed – I had just phone-voiced this guy in real life. 

The elderly couple moved away slowly and I grabbed a loaf of bread as the other guy stood debating what type of baked goods he wanted. Slipping past the couple, who were now stood around the hotdog buns, I speed walked my way to the checkout queue, the loaf of bread swinging in my hands as I walked. I stood at the back of the queue, looking up from my shoes to see how many people were stood in front of me when I saw, guess who standing in front of me? The guy who had been walking in front of me. 

He turned as I approached him, coming to a stop the same amount of distance he was standing from the woman in front of him, assuming that was how far away I was supposed to stand. As he turned, I took one glance at him and then ducked my head, pretending to be looking at the chewing gum. Oh my God, he was cute.

His hair was dark and looked like he had missed a couple of hairdresser appointments, falling in a mess of curls over his dark brown eyes, curling around the frames of his glasses. His face was covered in freckles and, yep, he was taller than me. 

He stepped forward towards the till as I freaked out about how to be cool, despite him not looking at me. You read it in books, didn’t you? About how people met in the oddest of places and fall in love and get married and have five kids. Maybe this was my guy.

I walked up to the other till and placed the bread down. It wasn’t until the guy behind the checkout coughed that I realised he had asked me a question and, being the awkward parsnip that I was, I bypassed the polite ways to ask someone to repeat themselves and, very loudly, said ‘huh?’ Turns out he had asked if I was paying by cash or card. I replied saying ‘cash’ as the blood rushed to my face and I quickly placed the coins in his outstretched hand, grabbing the bread and walking towards the exit. Maybe cute guy was waiting for me. He would approach me, a blush across his cheeks as he awkwardly said that he thought I was pretty and could he please get my number. His voice would be deep, but not so deep it was intimidating. I would smile, coyly, of course, and ask him if he had a pen. If he did, I would take it, take his hand, and write my number on the back of his hand, adding a small love heart after the digits. 

The air outside was much colder than it was in the shop and I glanced around, looking for cute guy. I caught a glimpse of him just before he turned a corner, walking in the opposite direction to me without a backwards glance. 

Maybe he wasn’t the one for me. I sighed, pulling my phone out of my back pocket and changing the song. Maybe I would find the love of my life next time I go out for bread. Then again, he probably was so incredibly humble he would never approach a girl to ask for her number. That poses an issue for how I would meet him. 

Maybe I should leave my love life to fate, and get the bread home before my father decided he no longer wanted toast, making my trip a waste of time. 


Yes, this actually happened.

It was a little less dreamy, but the main structure of the story is basically the same.

I'm just a sucker for hair thats messy and a little too long, and pretty eyes.

And yes, I'm this awkward in real life.

I wasn't sure whether to post this on a Wednesday or a Saturday. On Wednesdays, I tend to post reviews, or things that are basically me talking, rather than stories, which is why I opted to post this on a Saturday, when I normally post creative things/short stories. The only problem is this is technically also a story time, which I post on Wednesdays. See my dilemma? I might have to rethink my system...

Okay I'm done.

Bye!



Saturday, April 17, 2021

Places To Read, An Unintentional Multipart Short Story Series – Part 6

 

On Holiday


You are there to have a lovely time. It's a break from the trials of day to day life.

But, it's still a holiday, and they can sometimes be even more stressful than the stress you're meant to be escaping.

First, there's the issue of remembering where the suitcases are. Then realising you don't have enough room in said suitcases to take your whole bookcase.

There was the debate, do you take a book you've read before, and know you like, or do you take one you haven't read before and gamble it? You'll have something new to read, a story you don't know, but if you don't enjoy it, you're stuck with it. Like a person at school, who you helped when they dropped their bag, who now follows you everywhere because they think they're your friend.

You chose to take the book you've read before. It's not risky, only if you get bored of it. You already know the story, after all.

You're staying at a caravan park, in a caravan you don't know, that isn't yours, and that you'd never even seen before today. It's cramped, your family is closer physically than they are at home, but that doesn't mean they are closer in the sense of liking each others company. Your parents want everyone to get along, and your siblings would prefer to all leave the caravan, walk in separate directions and spend their days alone, returning only for food and sleep.

You have the perfect workaround. That pesky little paperback hiding in your bag.

The sun is out, and you step out of the caravan, looking around. There isn't anywhere to sit, and leaning against the caravan isn't an option – it doesn't look very clean.

You walk around the caravan, noting with pure joy that there is an outside balcony to the caravan. Running back inside, you pull back the curtains to reveal what had previously been hidden to you, and open the door.

It might not be the biggest area, and you might not know how many people have sat in that chair before you, but the sun is shining directly onto you and your skin is practically green with the amount of suncream slathered on it.

You sit in the white, plastic chair and kick your trainers off. No need to get a tan line. You rest your legs on the edge of the balcony, wanting to cross your legs at the ankles, but also wanting a tan, to look like you'd been on holiday, even when you're secretly looking forward to going home again.

You open your book, sighing, and start to read.


I'm not sure what's going on, whether it's just my screen or not, but all the writing I seem to do is so much smaller than it usually does.

Nevermind.

I have done this – I wrote a post about it. I took The Fault in Our Stars. You can read the post here:

Story Time – The Fault In Our Stars by John Green – my relationship with the story

I would finish reading it and then turn back to the first page to start it again.

Anyway, that's if from me for now.

Bye!



Wednesday, April 14, 2021

Creativity – when to censor and the importance of originality

 Creativity

Censoring and Originality


I will admit right now, I started writing this post with no idea as to where it is going. I know what I generally want to talk about, but structure? I don't know what that word means.

What inspired this post was Twitter (are you surprised at this point? I barely spend any time on Twitter, yet most of my posts are inspired by something that happened there.) I posted a short story a while ago, which was the first story I had ever written that included swearing and I was of two minds as to whether to post it or not. I generally avoid swearing in all my writing, because I feel like there will always be someone who doesn't like it. However, in this short story, I wanted the swearing to be there. So I asked Twitter. Specifically, I asked if I should post it and whether anyone would care about the swearing, saying that I didn't particularly want to censor it. This tweet was perhaps my most popular one ever. Of course there were one or two people who said that they would mind, and that's completely up to them. I wasn't looking for encouragement, I was looking for honest opinions. For the most part, though, people were incredibly for me posting it. It was the messages in their replies that sparked this post. A lot of them grasped onto the fact that I had said I did not want to censor my work.

Obviously, in real life, there's a time and place for certain things. For example, swearing. You wouldn't swear at your boss (if you like your job, that is), but you might if you stub your toe on the side of your bed. Likewise, there are some things that need censoring, but if something is creative, if you are proud of it and it is not meant in, or likely to cause, any harm, I see no issues with expressing that creativity.

If you are not being creative in your own style, then it will affect your work. Creativity is like handwriting, or a voice, it is different for every person. Sure, you can mimic handwriting, or other peoples voices, but then you are not being yourself – you are being the other person. You can be inspired by someone else and take that inspiration into your own work, but directly affecting your work to please others, or to do what you think will please others, isn't what creativity is about. Take handwriting – you can see someone else's handwriting and think it is lovely and adopt some of their style into your own, but if you copy it completely, you are writing as them, not as yourself. I have seen some lovely handwriting styles, and some of the ways I write letters have changed, but the writing is so messy and clearly mine that I'm not copying the other people's handwriting – I'm being inspired by it.

If you have added something into a story, a work of art, a piece of music, a film, or any other type of creativity, and you think someone might not like it, ask yourself – is it important to the mood and emotions your creation is supposed to elicit? If you put it there for a reason, it probably needs to be there. It's like removing the fact that there is a bicycle present in a scene, but needing the bicycle later on. It just doesn't work.

I mentioned before about the times when censoring, or toning down might be necessary. If your creation will be seen by people outside of your target audience, maybe be careful – you don't want little children seeing or hearing things they shouldn't if your work is available somewhere they can access without a parent/carer to check over it first. If your work contains aspects that go against other people, have a think before letting it loose in the world – think about what people might think of you when you post it. Even if it wasn't your intention, it's very easy to misread a sign, an emotion, or a sentence and you don't want to cause trouble or upset people. If you do, then maybe you shouldn't release that work. 

Creativity is about making something and showing a part of yourself to the world – make sure the part you show is a good part.


Despite the fact that I had no plan, I think this turned out okay. I love creativity, the idea of making something and someone else seeing it is so wonderful. A lot of effort goes into being creative and it is a glimpse into someone else's head, into their thoughts and feelings, and the fact that everyone can be creative in different ways is fascinating to me. I don't care if your creativity is being good at designing bridges, or drawing cartoons, it's something that you have created, something that your brain thought up that you then put into the world. It's something that someone else might be able to do similar, but no one can create the exact same thing as you can.

I hope this last paragraph has inspired someone. Create something, anything. It doesn't matter! Even if you think it's bad, or not the best you could do, you made that thing. YOU! Isn't that great? You are the only person who could have made that in that way, and that's pretty amazing.

Keep creating, and be nice while you do it. Bring some happiness, some appreciation into the world.

Bye!



Saturday, April 10, 2021

Writing Prompt Stories, Mini Stories That My Mind Cooked Up – Part 3



 "It's three in the morning..."


"And?" he leant again the doorframe, a small grin pulling at the left side of his mouth more than the right side. 

I blinked, shaking my head slightly in bemusement. Sighing, I stepped back, pulling the door open more. I let go of the handle, opting to pull the blanket higher up on my shoulders as he stepped into my apartment, closing the door behind him.

"I missed you," his hands came to rest on my shoulders and he leant down to press a kiss to my lips. I couldn't help but yawn as he pulled away and he looked down at me in amusement.

"Am I boring you?"

"No, Gray, but you did wake me up and I was having a very nice dream," I turned to walk into my bedroom and he followed me, turning the hallway light off as he passed the switch.

"Was I in it?" He asked and I smiled to myself as I pulled back the covers to my bed and climbed in, the blanket around my shoulders making a cocoon of warmth for me to snuggle into.

"No, but you know that guy in the movie we saw the other day? The hot one–"

"No! I don't need to hear that!" he fell into bed next to me, kicking his shoes off and sticking his feet under the covers. Giggling, I grabbed hold of his jumper and pulled him closer to me, abandoning my warmth cocoon in favour of the smell of night air that surrounded him, burying my face into his chest. His arms came to wrap around me, grabbing the discarded blanket and pulling it over me as he got comfortable.

"Did you come here to sleep? You know you have a bed at your place, right?" I mumbled into his jumper.

"Yeah, but I don't have you at my place, do I?" he whispered into my hair and I smiled sleepily, his words making me feel all tingly inside.

"Can you not sleep without me there?" I asked, shuffling closer as his body heat became more favourable than the blanket, my hand grabbing a fistful of his jumper and holding onto it tightly to keep him close as I yawned again, my eyes threatening to send me to sleep without any warning.

"Of course, not, Evie," his hand came to rest in my hair, "no one can sleep without their angel watching over them."

"Why is your angel at my house?" I mumbled, my brain half between consciousness and sleep and far too tired to understand what he was saying. He chuckled against my hair and the movement moved my head up and down, making me frown a little and snuggle closer, the sound of his heartbeat making me sleepier by the second as it lulled me to sleep.

"She lives here," he whispered and I nodded, my cheek rubbing against the material of his hoodie, pretending I understood.

"Does my landlord know that it's not just me living here?"

"Evie, I don't think you really understand me," he mumbled and I forced my eyes open, raising my head to look up at him.

"I always understand you."

"How?" he asked and I felt almost insulted by the smile on his face. Was he laughing at me?

"Because our souls are like this," I held up my hand and crossed my fingers in front of his face, to show him.

"Our souls are crossed?" he asked and I nodded. "Are they knotted together in an unbreakable bond?" I frowned, blinking sleep away, and nodded again. "Are they an indestructible force as long as they are together, and can never be apart?"

"Are you making fun of me?"

"No, I'm just being poetic, Evie," he chuckled and I frowned, not believing him.

"Why were you awake in the first place?"

"I missed you." I felt the frown slip from my face and a grin take over.

"You're adorable," I leaned forwards and kissed him.

"And you're exhausted, lie down and close your eyes," he smiled, guiding my head down to rest on his chest again.

"I love you," I mumbled, his jumper muffling my words and sleep clouding my brain.

"I love you more, little angel." I breathed out heavily and, as the breath left my body, making way for more air, my mind turned itself off, drifting to sleep with his breath against my hair, his arms wrapped around me and his heartbeat against my cheek, keeping me safe and enveloping me in everything that is him.


Generally, the things I write contain at least a little bit of murder and/or someone crying at some point, but apparently I'm feeling a little sappy today.

Also I didn't want to do the stereotypical:

"It's three in the morning..."

"I know, do you have a shovel? I need you to help me bury a body."

Anyway, post over, have a lovely day!

Bye!



Wednesday, April 7, 2021

A Review – Precious Amber by James Fuller

Precious Amber
by James Fuller
A Review


There is a little story (when isn't there) regarding my obtaining this book. My story today starts with me following James Fuller on Twitter. At the time, I wasn't focused on the fact that he wrote books, but more on the fact that he had a cool Twitter page – side note, I follow people on Twitter based on their tweets and profiles. If I follow someone, it means I think they seem cool.

Anyway, I saw a tweet saying that his book Tealock was on offer, and who am I to pass up a free book? (I have so many books on my eReader that I haven't read, I have an issue – I see a free book, I get it. You understand.) Obviously, this is not a review for Tealock, because it was recommended to read Precious Amber first, as Tealock is a prequel. So I decided to treat myself, and I bought Precious Amber. (I will say, at this point, I had already downloaded Tealock, so getting Precious Amber seemed essential.) 

Now, my favourite types of movies are horrors and thrillers. I love the tension, especially when done well. This hasn't quite moved into my reading preferences yet, because my bank account would cry if I start buying too many more books, but you see where I'm going. I set the scene, it was cold, so I curled up with a blanket, a cup of hot tea in my hand, and picked up my eReader.

I didn't move all evening – at least until I had finished it.

Once again, I'm going to introduce the book before I get into my review. Here we go!


I have watched her from afar since the day she was born… I knew from the moment my eyes spied her that she was the one… the one I needed, the one I have searched for so very long. My careful planning and sacrifices would all be worth it when she was finally mine. She will not disappoint me like the others, for she is Precious...

Betrayed, taken, confused and almost utterly alone, six-year-old Amber Rose struggles against her kidnapper. A man she once called a friend is now her deranged keeper. Stripped of anything resembling normal, locked in a room, Amber struggles in a physical and psychological war with her kidnapper, and with herself, as the abuse and manipulation for control begin…

The case of Amber Rose hits too close to home for Police Captain Charles Milton, bringing out an obsessive need to bring Amber home no matter what the cost to himself, or others. But will his determination be enough to find her in time?

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Now onto my review!


If the one thing I wanted was to feel tension, I definitely felt it. Amber is just six years old when she is kidnapped, and with multiple points of view, we not only see Amber's perspective, we also see the police officers working tirelessly to find her and, more disturbingly, the perspective of her kidnapper.

I think that Amber's age is what made this book even more intense – she is so young, not old enough to understand what's going on, or why such a thing has happened to her. In simple words, she is brainwashed by her kidnapper, you could even use the word trained. If she listens, she is rewarded, she gets toys, a nice room, food. If she doesn't, she is starved and beaten. Throughout the novel, you can see her internal debate as to whether to listen to her kidnapper or not. She learns quickly that she must listen, do as she is told, and catches herself in moments when she seems to accept what has happened, when she feels joy and then quickly remembers why she shouldn't. But should she? Had she been rescued, like her kidnapper had told her? If he was lying, why hadn't her parents come for her yet? It was chilling to see her slowly adjust to her circumstances, in the way that her kidnapper set up, to teach her the new way of thinking, of acting.

Alongside Amber's perspective, we follow Captain Charles Milton of the Cedar Falls police department. He takes the case incredibly personally, becoming more and more involved as the search continues and no evidence comes to light. There is no trail to follow and Amber's life is at stake – for all anyone knows, she could already be dead. His dedication to the case gets him in trouble, in the police department and with the people around him, especially so with his wife. He's barely at home and amidst the panic that another day, another week, has gone by with no signs pointing to Amber's whereabouts, his marriage is falling apart. He pushes his personal life to the side to focus on finding Amber. Watching the other side of the story, from the perspective of someone trying desperately, grasping at the thinnest straws, to try and track Amber down was a fabulous addition to the story, as it reminds you that this is all happening in the real world, where people fight with their partners, where people betray you and where people go into cafes so regularly that they know what their order is before they even sit down. You can't distance yourself from the fact that this is happening in the world that we live in, because Charles Milton is there to remind you and that fact is terrifying.

I am the type of person who narrows in on grammar mistakes and punctuation errors and I won't say that there were none in this book. There were a couple of instances where I had to do a double take on a word, because it was obviously not the correct one, but one very similar to what was meant. Having said that, however, the story was good enough for me to overlook these, because I couldn't tear myself away from this book and I will likely be reading it again very soon.


I wrote this on the same day as I read the book and, I must say, I am very excited to sit down tomorrow and read Tealock, because it is just sitting in my eReader, begging me to click it and sit down for a couple of hours. Unfortunatly, I don't have time to do so right now, so I'm going to have to wait!

Bye!



Saturday, April 3, 2021

Places To Read, An Unintentional Multipart Short Story Series – Part 5

 



In A Restaurant


Your family hates you.

You accepted this fact a long time ago.

However, it's comment knowledge that it always takes a ridiculously long time between ordering and actually receiving your food. So much time, in fact, that it would be quicker to just cook something at home. But you can't be bothered to wash up, which is why people go to restaurants.

There was an argument before you left the house. It started with a 'hurry up' called up the stairs, to which you replied 'I'm nearly at the bottom of the page'. This was a lie, of course, because you finished the page, and then the next one, and then the next one. You would've finished another if your sibling had not been sent up the stairs to fetch you.

The argument continued when you came downstairs, shoes and coat on, and your book still in your hand. You had been told 'leave that book here' and you had flatly refused. That was when the argument started.

So now, sitting in the restaurant, your coat on the back of your chair, the murmur of each table having their own conversation. You had all ordered (fish and chips, side of curry sauce and onion rings) and now started the wait. Your drinks arrived and everyone at the table immediately picked theirs up and sipped it, for that's all there was to do as you waited for your food. Converse, sip, sit in silence. It seemed almost rude to pick up your phone, so no one did.

You, however, triumphantly pulled out your book and opened it. You were well aware of your parents glaring at you, but you don't care. You won that argument, they gave up. You possess the willpower that they lack. And while they sit in silence, sipping their drinks and eventually having a short conversation, before sipping their drinks again and falling silent, you are in a different world, thoroughly entertained. You believe you are a genius and why does no one else bring books to restaurants?

You put the book down when your food arrives and your family all look up at you. Did they think you would read throughout the meal? There's an idea...



Hello!

I would like to begin by saying, no, I have not done this before. But sitting at a restaurant with nothing to do but sip your drink, until you have to order another drink and you don't even have your food yet? It's boring. I'm sure it's crossed all our minds once or twice. If only I had a book...

It is, indeed, a cure-all. Sick? Read a book. Have a day off? Read a book. Don't have a day off but you're taking one anyway? Read a book. Sitting in a restaurant with nothing to do as you wait impatiently for your food to arrive, even though something with the order will inevitably be wrong? READ A BOOK!

Don't listen to my advice. Society will shun you.

Unless that's what your goal is. Then, by all means, take a book to a restaurant. Shush people and tell them you're trying to read. Believe me, society will not like you for very long.

Anyway...

Bye!